Penantian 11 tahun.

Adik beradik 30 smthg semua dah tahu Abang Ngah dok bz seminggu ni sebab menyambut kelahiran my princess Tasha, sebab tu la senyap je blog ni bersawang terus Ejin kata. Actually yang banyak bahan nak update pun Ejin sorang tapi dia sibuk dok jalan makan jalan makan...tu yang bersawang terus takde masa nak mengupdate.

Actuallynya, Today 13 July was suppose to be the date set for Cesarean untuk Fid. Even though actual due date ialah 1st August, the Gynae said we can do the cesarean 2 weeks early when the baby reach 37 weeks.

Nak jadi cerita since 2nd July Fid dok mengadu sakit perut sekali sekala especially biler baby dok keraskan badan or stayed kat 1 corner of the stomach. Aku la yang dok usap usap perut tu pujuk baby suruh relax and move to the centre. It has been my routine for 9 months sejak awal pregnancy...and normally it works very fast and Fid pun dapat tidur lena.

Tapi sejak 2nd July...dah tak works...Fid dok menahan sakit sampai tertidur...pastu selang hari pulak tu sakit tu datang. Aku pun suruh Fid call Gynae tanya...on 7th July Fid called the Gynae and we were asked to come and see him immediately. Sampai je kat hospital, buat CTG rupanya ada contraction. Nak buat camne...kami pasangan remaja tak tahu pun camtu rupanya contraction...GGG. Almaklum...masa Ej dulu pun casae and sebab nak sambut raya terus pilih pilih date untuk melahirkan EJ awal...tak sempat contraction. Lepas buat CTG tu terus kena tahan wad and it was decided for Fid to go for Cesarean the next day at 8am.

Without any delay, I informed adik beradik 30 smtg and Kak Long kata dah rasa nak nangis. I myself masa tu berdebar debar plus excited. Ej was shouting and jumping up and down tak sabar to meet Tasha. Fid pulak dah kurang bercakap...sebab rasa excited and scared.

Di pendekkan cerita on 8th of July 2011 at 8.55am, Tasha selamat di lahirkan dengan berat 2.94kg. That was the day yang full with mixed feelings, debaran, kesedihan, kegembiraan dan macam macam feeling lagi. Syukran syukran...selepas 6 hari di Hospital, Fid dan Tasha dapat pulang ke rumah hari ini. Welcome home my beloved queen and lovely princess.

Tasha & Kak Misha.

Ej yang sangat sangat excited to have a baby sister. Rajin dia jaga Tasha and selalu nak pegang Tasha tapi aku tak galak kan...takut Tasha asyik nak berdukung je nanti biler nak tidur.

The moment yang akan aku kenang ialah biler Ej was crying teresak esak masa melambai mummy sebelum mummy masuk operation theater ...masa tu nak pujuk EJ but aku sendiri pun tak boleh nak tahan sedih.
Tasha & mummy.

Sebenarnya, Fid yang bersungguh sungguh to have another baby untuk temankan EJ. Even though she knows the risk she is taking tapi biler EJ selalu kata dia bosan takde siblings, Fid bersungguh sungguh nak pregnant lagi. Dah few years we have been trying on and off tapi 2009 bersungguh sungguh sikit usaha tu and we went to see Gynae few times la jugak on and off.

To tell you a secret...masa Kak Long kata she was pregnantkan Aariz, I was so scared to inform Fid takut dia kecewa. Lama jugak la aku simpan berita tu before I told her.

After tried for so long aku memang dah lost hope and malas nak fikir. Ingat nak IUI ke IVF ke...macam la murah kan procedure tu. Masa balik from Bali trip last year, Fid dah rasa lain...dok loya bagai aku beli pregnancy test. Biler result positive, terus pi jumpa gynae. Masa tu happy sangat. Tak sangka after more than 10 years bersalinkan EJ, Fid diberi peluang to get pregnant again.

9 mths pregnantkan Tasha rasa lain sangat as compared to time EJ 11 years back. Almaklum, pasangan remaja. Rasa lain sebab Fid dah pernah miscarrige twice and bleeding case masa casae dulu menyebabkan kami tried not to over excited and lebih berhati hati. Plus rasa risau kalau case tu berulang.

Kita hanya mampu berharap, Fid terpaksa juga went through similar case during this casae. Kalau normal casae 1 jam, Fid was more than 2 hours in the Operation theater. This round she was much stronger and lebih pasrah. She has done her best to carry Tasha for 9 mths and ikut nasihat doktor, family and friends. Tapi tak dapat nak melawan ujian dariNya.

Walaupun aku selalu perli Fid lembik...she is still a bionic woman of her own. I love you "mummy".
Tasha & daddy

Tak pernah sangka I have a chance to qamatkan another child. The very first moment I met Tasha...tak terkata...perasaan bercampur campur dengan Fid yang masih dalam labour room. Biler ingat semua Ok pastu dapat bad news...rasa nak jatuh jantung.

Abang Ngah ingin merakam kan ucapan terima kasih yang tak terhingga kepada adik beradik 30smtg yang banyak jadi a shoulder to cry on...yang ber WhatApp setiap masa bertanya khabar...yang banyak bagi semangat. Thank you liz, ita & ejin. Korang sumer...terbaekkk. Ni menaip sambil menitik air mata ni..so korang baca pun kena menitik air mata jugak...jangan meleleh hingus sudah...lariiiiii.
The four of us finally at home today. Tasha kurang selesa sikit sebab panas...kat hospital kan beraircond...but hopefully she will adopt to the environment cepat.

Semoga Allah pinjamkan kebahagiaan ini untuk satu tempoh yang panjang to our family. That's all for now...nanti ada masa aku buat posting lagi.