The Passing after Brief Introduction

Izz Azeem...a newly addition to Ngasri's has left us yesterday Oct 7th. Dzu had the baby delievered thru emergency caesarian on Friday Oct5th. She actually went for a check up but doctor detected the baby's heartbeat was failing and the size was too small for his months of conceived. That was Dzu first appointment with the GH after advised by the private hospital last month due to the slow growth of the baby.The baby was safely delivered , weighted at 1.2kg --(slightly bigger than Aariz as Aariz was 1.12kg).. but there was severe complication with his internal organs that made treatment was almost impossible. Long story short, he finaly passing yesterday after that very brief introduction.

My heart goes to both my brother and Dzu...but especially for Dzu..after carrying for 35 weeks, definitely there's bonding between her and the baby, and the post delivery passage that she is having now, the breastmilk, the exhaustion after birth, confinement etc...I told my brother again again to be extra sensitive and concentrate on her more than anything else now.
I felt bad about myself when I had Aariz for him being a premie and had to spent his first 2 months in the hospital--in the incubator where you couldnt touch and hold him close. But mine is way to lame compared to what Dzu has to go through.
I pray to Allah to give her strengh and patience. She sounds all positive but only god knows how she is feeling inside her..we can say anything but we just cant take the sorrow away. I think I ahve written before that my sister in laws are strong women...they are very patience and strongwill...I hope with that she able to handle this and redha. We talked and we cried...and I told her sometimes things just happened, thus we just need to believe and redha ...not everything has a specific reason to it. .

[Al Baqarah:117]

Allah Pencipta langit dan bumi, dan bila Dia berkehendak sesuatu, maka Dia hanya mengatakan kepadanya: "Jadilah!" Lalu jadilah ia."

And despite the sadness that she is having now, she has to believe that the little angel will wait for her  in heaven and he is now in a better place...

As for me...i feel so deeply for her lost but on top of that I have this strong feeling that this little angel is extended to us for that brief moment as a reminder to me and to all of us... .he is the first of the Ngasri's to leave....That little angel is definitely a message and again Allah leave it to us on how we want to learn from this passage....
Al fatihah~~

1. Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

2. Segala puji tertentu bagi Allah, Tuhan yang Memelihara dan Mentadbirkan sekalian alam.
3. Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani.
4. Yang Menguasai pemerintahan hari Pembalasan (hari akhirat).
5. Engkaulah sahaja (Ya Allah) Yang Kami sembah dan kepada Engkaulah sahaja kami memohon pertolongan.
6. Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus.
7. Iaitu jalan orang-orang yang Engkau telah kurniakan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan (jalan) orang-orang yang Engkau telah murkai dan bukan pula (jalan) orang-orang yang sesat.